Taking the train into D.C. with lots of things on my mind…primarily wondering what I will be doing a year from now and processing the path that has led me here. Here are a few of the thoughts that I’ve been processing.
- The other day, a friend (Jeff Cook) said, “Brother, God always shows up but he seldom comes early.” My situation has been difficult, but not nearly as difficult as what many face. Losing my job has given a greater level of understanding of the difficulty that some face as they wait on God for guidance or relief. Jeff’s comment reminds of the verse that says, “I was young and now I am old but I have never seen the righteous forsaken or their children begging for bread.”
- Along with waiting for guidance, I’m also learning new lessons about the difficulty and necessity of forgiveness. Accepting forgiveness is the basis of my relationship with God, and practicing it shows that I am his son. Emotionally, I’m having a hard time getting there. My biggest struggle is with malice…wishing bad on those who have hurt me. It seems to me that a first step in the process is not seeking revenge and beginning to pray for those who have wronged me. I’ll let you know what the other steps are in my experience when I get to them.
- The prayers of other are critical to people passing through a dark night or a deep valley. Several people have reminded me recently that they are praying for my family. I’m moved and comforted to know that people continue to stand by us in prayer. My faith in terms of the future is often weak at best, but I am encouraged by the faith and confidence of others. I compare it to being in a fog where I can’t see what lies ahead, but others, who are outside of the fog are interceding on my behalf, calling out dangers and seeing safe harbors that I can’t see on my own…and guiding me there with their prayers.
The train is pulling into Union Station so I’ll wrap up this post with a refrain often heard when my black brothers and sisters worship…
“God is good all the time. All the time, God is good.”